We'll Always Have Weekends

Today's my last day on maternity leave. I head back to the office (on a Friday, I know) tomorrow and can't shake this pang of guilt. I'm really looking forward to talk about things other than babies and development, having adult conversations in general, and not having to eat with one hand or inhale food like my life depends on it. However, I will be missing Mads' developmental milestones and her 1001 expressions that changes, improves, and sometimes disappears over time.

For a first time mother, Mads really spoiled us. She is an easy going, happy all the time baby that only cries bloody murder out of Hangerness. She's sleeping through the night with one single waking at 3AM for a hungry feed and she always, always greets us in the morning with a full on toothless smile. We've also found an amazing nanny that really loves Mads and I finally feel 100% alright leaving the home and leaving Mads in her care.

Nonetheless, balancing motherhood and a career in high tech is not going to be a cakewalk. I'll always feel guilty not being by Mads' side and will always feel like I'm missing out. But these past 4.5 months have been nothing but bliss and I've been savoring every last moment, not taking a single second for granted. For that, I'm super lucky.

Taken on the last day of mat leave.
This is how Mads is every single day. It makes me feel 100% okay returning to work.